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Thursday, June 30, 2005

Nothing much to tok abt tis wk.. life is as usual.. morning went for sch anf back in the evening.. afew misunderstanding happened between our bunch of sista, but things get solved already.. so tats a happy ending! endure every character of a frenz equip wib, no matter is good or bad.. =)first time went to our sch stadium, i simple love tat place sooooo much! its windy over there.. great atmosphere~ chatting among our sista, gonna go there again real soon! steal tis story frm lala's blog.. find it really meaningful but its a damn long story.. if ya have the time to spare, don miss tis story out.. its touching & meaningful!

*****"Look out!"Joan turned but it was too late. The water bomb had splashed right into her face. She winced. That was cold, she thought. She reached out to wipe the water from her face. She and her friends were at Cindy's birthday party. The games had been fun, but tiring as well. She was glad when it was time to head for the refresments."Hey Joan!" Cindy called out.Joan turned and saw Cindy dragging a 16 year old teenager behind her."Let me introduce my brother to you.He's Jason." she said.Joan turned to look at the stranger for the first time. She gasped. Wasn't this the guy who had teased her everyday when he met her? She was stunned. "You..," was all she could manage to say.But Jason grinned at her," So this is your friend. I think we met before, haven't we, Joan?"Joan just stared at Cindy and her brother, nodding her head slowly."Oh, if that's the case, i shall leave you two to talk among yourselves," Cindy replied, walking away to entertain the rest of the guests."So..hi.," Jason said and smiled, showing his perfect set of white teeth."Oh, hello," Joan replied.She took her time to look at Jason. He had a set of deep blue coloured eyes, which reminded her of the ocean. He was tall and had blonde hair. Everything about him matched completely. He seemed..perfect. Too perfect. She would have believed in love at first sight if she didn't have a boyfriend. Too bad she did. And she wasn't going to show Jason that she was interested in him in any way."Got to go," Joan turned and left the party.

*****The sunlight shone into her room. Joan woke up. School was starting again, and the summer holidays were over. No more daydreaming, she thought. Walking into the hall, she picked up the phone and dialed her boyfriend, Andy's number."Hello?""Hey, Andy?" Joan said."Um..Joan? What's up?""Can you pick me up in fifteen minutes time?""Huh?""I thought u said that you wanted to go to school with me today..?""Oh. Yeah. I sort of um, forgot. Something cropped up. Sorry honey."Without another word, Andy hung up.Well, that was weird, Joan thought. But she ignored that feeling as she believed Andy when he said that something had cropped up. She went to bathe, then she went to school by herself.On reaching the school gate, she spotted a car that seemed familar to her. The car went into the school and parked itself in an empty spot. Andy got out of the car. Joan smiled and was about to call him when he went over to the passenger's seat and opened the door. A girl dressed in a sweater and a mini skirt stepped out. Joan gasped as the scene continued in front of her. Andy took the girl by her hand and they kissed each other. Joan could not believe what was going on. Is this a dream, or is this for real? She thought as she pinched herself. Ouch, that hurt, she thought. Knowing that she would have to confront Andy sooner or later, she walked up to the couple. Andy saw her and was shocked."I demand an explaination." Joan looked at him sternly."I--""So now you have seen it, and you should know what it means. He wants to break up with you. Get it?" The girl beside Andy interruped.Joan was speechless. But knowing that she could not do anything about it, she just glared at Andy and ran away.She ran, not knowing where she was heading to. She just kept running in the hallway. People stared at her. She knew why. Tears were streaming down her crimson cheeks. Her eyes were red and she looked unsightly. She saw a girls' toilet and went inside. Luckily for her, it was empty and she would not have to face any more stares for now. She washed her face and looked into the mirror."Joan, you're such a fool. You could have known that Andy is such a freak and he was cheating on you all the time. How could you have fallen into this dumb trap without knowing it?" She said to her reflection.But the reflection just stared back at her. It gave no reply, and no expressions to show that it was angry. The tears came back.

*****Joan stepped out of the toilet, feeling refreshed. She turned a corner and nearly banged into Jason."Whoa! Watch where you're going, will ya--" Jason stopped in mid sentence when he noticed that it was Joan. "Oh, hey, what's up?" Jason looked at Joan's gloomy face."Something happened?" He asked.But Joan just turned and walked to her class.

*****It was the last period.Jason couldn't concentrate in class. What was wrong with Joan? Why did she have to avoid him everytime? Maybe she already knew that he had fallen for her. But it was impossible. So far, Jason had not given out any hints to show that. Well, who knows? He thought. Humans are weird. He took out his notebook."Dear diary,I am feeling troubled. I met her again today at the hallway. She looks kind of..sad. I wished I could help her in any way. But she seems to be avoiding me every time. I wished that i could hug her and tell her that everything is gonna be okay. But i can't do that. She doesn't feel the same way towards me like what i feel towards her. It's one-sided love. I want to be with her. Will that dream ever come true one day?"He closed the notebook. School was over. He picked up his bag and drove home.

*****Jason rushed to his room and turned on his computer. Everyday after school, he would never fail to see his pen-pal, "Candy Dreams" online. He had never met her before, but she had been a good friend to him all these while.[Dotty] says: Hi![Candy Dreams] says: Hi! I've been waiting for you to come online.[Dotty] says: Haha..first time hearing you say that.[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway..i and my boyfriend broke up..[Dotty] says: Huh? What happened? Are you feeling okay?[Candy Dreams] says: I wished i hadn't been so childish to have liked him in the first place..[Dotty] says: Don't be silly. You didn't know this would happen anyway.[Candy Dreams] says: But i feel so stupid..I can't seem to forget him.[Dotty] says: You just have to remember..time heals all wounds..[Candy Dreams] says: Thanks..i really appreciate that.[Candy Dreams] says: Anyway, enough about me. So what's going on between you and your dream girl?[Dotty] says: Well..i met her again today.[Candy Dreams] says: And?[Dotty] says: Same old thing. She avoided me. But i couldn't help noticing how sad she looked.[Candy Dreams] says: Maybe she doesn't know how you feel about her..i think you should tell her.[Dotty] says: No, I dun plan to tell her. I rather things remain this way..[Dotty] says: I feel that..Just as long as she is happy, I will feel the same way.To me, love is about happiness.I just want to be a friend to her..[Candy Dreams] says: Whoa, I'd feel lucky if i were her..She has no idea how great you are..[Candy Dreams] says: I wished my boyfriend was like that..[Dotty] says: True love will come to you one day too. Dun worry..[Candy Dreams] says: Hope so. Anyway, gtg. Cya![Dotty] says: Cya![Candy Dreams has logged off]

*****Joan felt better. Maybe time really would heal all wounds. She reached into her drawer and took out her diary."Dear Diary,I feel alot better after talking to my friend. Sometimes i feel that he's like a soul mate to me. Well anyway, maybe things will get alot better. It isn't time for me to brood about this stuff anymore. I have to forget about Andy. Actually, you know what? I have a little feeling for Jason too. But i'm not gonna go into another relationship so soon..And i can't gurantee than Jason feels the same way. Who knows what will happen in the future?"

*****Jason stepped into the school, feeling fresh after a morning bath. He walked up to his classroom, meeting Joan on the way. To his suprise, she smiled at him, showing a perfect pair of dimples. Jason grinned and fluffed her hair as they walked past each other. He continued on his way, smiling to himself all the time. He felt warm. She had actually smiled at him! It was such a great feeling to know that he had actually existed in Joan's life.During break time, Jason saw Joan and decided to strike up a conversation to see whether she would respond."Um..so..hi," Jason stammered."Hey!" Joan greeted cheerfully, laughing as she did so.Jason felt suprised and warm at her friendly greeting. She looks so cute when she laughs, he thought."Care to eat with me?" Jason asked hopefully"Sure!" was Joan's joyful response.

*****After eating his dinner, Jason went to his room and took out his notebook."Dear Diary,I had a great lunch today. Perhaps that was because of her presence. She smiled at me for the first time today.. I felt warm. It makes me more unwilling to confess my true feelings to her as i am afraid that she would avoid me. I rather she treat me this way, just like a close friend whom she can share her thoughts to. I don't want to do something that I will regret later. Maybe it would be best if the situation remains like this.." Jason closed his notebook silently. The day after would be international friendship day. He decided to buy a present for Joan.

*****"Hi!" Joan called out.Jason turned around."Hey girl," He grinned.Joan smiled. He had no idea how his heart-stopping grin seem to be of a comfort to her."So, what's going on?" Joan asked."Haha, same old thing. I can't figure out a thing the algebra teacher is talking about.""Did u always have a problem with algebra? You could have told me earlier!""Don't tell me i'm talking to an algebra expert?" Jason asked."Haha.. Well, i wouldn't call myself that. But i get As for my algebra. It's my favourite subject.""Hey! That's cool! Would you be willing to teach me?""Sure! In fact, I'm free after school today. You?""Me too. Meet you in the library after school?""Okay. See ya later then," Joan replied.They then parted, walking different directions towards their classrooms.Suddenly, Jason turned around."Hey," He called out."Yeah?" Joan turned."Thanks..for being such a friend. I really appreciate that,""Hey, you're a great friend yourself too," Joan smiled.They continued on their own way. Maybe there is hope for both of us..? No, I shouldn't be thinking like this. But..i actually have the feeling that i miss him.. Joan thought. Clutching her books tightly towards her chest, she walked into the classroom, put her things down and took out her diary."Dear Diary,What is going on? What is wrong with me..? Why is it that I long to be with him but yet i am trying my best not to like him..? Is this love? I wished he was here right now, beside me. I want to be with him so badly, but he seems to treat me only as a close friend. That's all. A close friend. I want to be someone more than a close friend to him. But maybe that is not so possible afterall.."

*****"Dear Diary,Is that all i reallie mean to her? A 'great friend' ? I want to be more than a great friend to her. But it seems that she only treats me as a friend. I don't know how to tell her how much i want to be with her. Maybe waiting would be my only option.. Is this love?" Jason rested his head on his hands and re-read the entry he had just written into his notebook. He sighed. Maybe love isn't so great afterall..

*****Joan waved at Jason to signal him to come over to the table she was sitting at. Jason jogged over and pulled out a chair to make himself comfortable."Had a great lunch?" Joan asked."Yeah..""Okay.. I guess we can start on our work then," Joan said.Throughout the whole afternoon, Joan spent her time explaining to Jason and teaching him all the problems which he didn't know how to solve. She was disappointed when it was time to go home. But she refused to show her true feelings to Jason and put on a brave front instead."So..if you have any other questions..feel free to find me," She smiled."Thanks," Jason answered.They left the library, each going their own seperate way.

*****Joan rushed to her room, dumped her bag aside, and turned on her computer. Dotty was online! She couldn't wait to tell him what had happened recently.[Candy Dreams] says: Hey!![Dotty] says: Hi![Candy Dreams] says: Sorry I'm late..[Dotty] says: Haha, no problem, I just signed in not long ago too.[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..[Dotty] says: So what's up?[Candy Dreams] says: I seem to have fallen for someone else...[Dotty] says: That's great. Maybe that person would treat your better than how your ex did..[Candy Dreams] says: I don't even know whether he feels the same way..[Dotty] says: Hey, remember the advice you gave me? Why don't you tell the guy?[Candy Dreams] says: Me? No way. I wouldn't want to break a friendship.[Dotty] says: But did you give him any hints?[Candy Dreams] says: Nah.. I think he only treats me as a close friend..[Dotty] says: Don't be so sad..[Candy Dreams] says: I'm alright. Thanks.. I gtg anyway. I'm tired. Off to sleep!=)[Dotty] says: Haha..maybe you should be called Candy Pig huh?[Candy Dreams] says: Hey! Too tired to argue with you anymore. Good night![Candy Dreams has logged off]Joan smiled to herself. Sometimes, Dotty had such humour that she was unable to resist. He would always make her smile even after a tired day. Time to sleep, she thought.

*****Jason clutched the present tightly in his hand. It was International friendship day and he had gotten a present for Joan. He made his way to her classroom."Joan?"She turned. Jason was standing at the doorway of her classroom."Hey. Nice to see ya," she responded."So um..here's a present for you. Friends forever.."Joan was suprised. She had gotten a present for Jason too."Wait here," she told him.Awhile later, Joan returned, holding a box tied with a silver ribbon."Here," she said.They exchanged their presents with each other."Thanks for being such a good friend to me. Friends forever..," Joan smiled at Jason.Once again, Jason was struck by her smile. He jus stared at her with a kind of sadness in his eyes. This girl can never be mine, he thought. He grinned at Joan and waved goodbye to her before going back to his classroom.

*****Joan returned to her seat. She stared at the lavender box in her hand. What could be in it? she thought. opening the box, she saw a silver bracelet lying among the soft cotton. She picked it up. It's beautiful, she thought. She gazed at it for awhile before putting it back into the box. Taking out her diary, she wrote:"Dear Diary,He gave me a bracelet. And it's..reallie beautiful..I hope he likes the present i gave him too.. But i don't understand. Does he just treat me as a friend? I want to be more than a friend to him. But it's so hard to tell him. I just seem to lose my words when looking at him. He's my angel. My love. But he'll never get to know that..I'll never find the courage to tell him.." The teacher came in. Joan closed her book quickly and put in in her bag. Who is this cute guy beside the teacher? She thought. Awhile later, the guy was introduced as Dave. He had just transferred from another school and Joan was assigned to help him around the school. Thus, Dave was to sit beside her. The other girls stared at Joan with envy. But Joan..her thoughts were all filled of Jason..

*****"Dear Diary,She gave me a wallet. That was sweet of her. I love the present she gave me..i hope she likes the one i gave her too..I don't understand. Does she treat me only as a friend? She means much more to me than that. But she doesn't know. And she never will..cos i won't have the courage to tell her.."

*****Just as Joan was walking down the hallway, a voice stopped her."Um..hi."She turned her head. Wasn't that Dave?"Hey. You got problems with your work?""Er..actually yea.sort of.Are u able to go thru some notes with me tomorrow?""Tomorrow..yea i think i'll be free.""Okay..we'll study at my house? My parents will be home, so don't worry.""Haha.I'm not gonna worry with an honest guy like you. Cya tomorrow then!"Joan walked off.Dave stared at her. She's wonderful, he thought. And i'm in love with her.

*****Joan threw her bag onto the bed and turned on the computer immediately.A new contact had added her."Who's this guy..?" She said to herself.dave_jones@hotmail.comSounds familar, she thought.[Dave] says: Hey..are u Joan?[Candy Dreams] says: Yea..u are Dave?[Dave] says: Haha. The one and only.[Candy Dreams] says: Okae. So how did u get my add?[Dave] says: Well. thru a senior..[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, well okae. these things happen all the time anyway.[Dave] says: So are u still on for tomorrow?[Candy Dreams] says: Yea sure. I'm supposed to help u anyway.[Dave] says: Ok. Hey look, i gtg. Cya tomorrow then.[Candy Dreams] says: Yep..cya.good nite.[Dave has logged off][Dotty has logged on][Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahh~[Dotty] says: Heyyz.[Candy Dreams] says: Haha. I had a great day and i'm soo happie!![Dotty] says: Hmm..looks like something happened huh.[Candy Dreams] says: He gave me a present!![Dotty] says: Sounds familar..haha..anyway, what is it?[Candy Dreams] says: Secret..[Dotty] says: Oh well.Haha.Hmm..Candy?[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?[Dotty] says: Do you want to meet up?[Candy Dreams] says: Um..well..i'm nort sure..u want?[Dotty] says: I'm not sure too..but i reallie want to meet up with u.[Candy Dreams] says: Me too. Well in that case..how about next wednesday?[Dotty] says: No problem. Meet at?[Candy Dreams] says: Hmm..you know that place Dolphino?8pm?[Dotty] says: Yeah sure. I gtg. See you soon..[Candy Dreams] says: Haha.I'm looking forward to meeting u too. See ya..[Dotty has logged off]

*****Joan stood at the steps of Dave's house, clutching her books. She pressed the bell. Dave opened the door."Hey," Joan said."Well, come in."Dave led Joan to the living room, where his parents were at."Hi auntie and uncle," Joan greeted them politely.They smiled at her and nodded."So where are we supposed to study?" Joan asked Dave."At the dining room. Come on."They walked to the dining room and sat down. Then, Joan taught Dave all the subjects which he had problems in. The time passed quickly and it was time for Joan to leave."Bye. See you in school tomorrow," Joan said and left his house.Dave, you're so stupid, you could have asked her to stay awhile more, he thought. Oh well.

*****[Candy Dreams has logged on][Dave] says: Hi![Candy Dreams] says: Hey.[Dave] says: Um..i got something to tell you.[Candy Dreams] says: Haha, what is it?[Dave] says: Well um..[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah?[Dave] says: I..i like you.[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?[Dave] says: I know you probably don't feel the same way..But i reallie like u alot and i'm gonna try to win your heart..i hope you won't stop me..cya.[Candy Dreams] says: Well..[Dave has logged off]What's going on? Joan thought. Is he kidding or what? I just knew him a few days ago and he likes me? Is that a joke? Well. Guys.

*****Jason went to his room to do his homework. When he sat down at his chair, he suddenly remembered that he left his pen with his sister. He went to her room to take it.Seeing that his pen was on her table, he decided that he didn't need her permission to take something that was his. He was just about to leave when a piece of paper on the desk caught his attention. He picked it up.candy_dreams@hotmail.comIsn't that..No it couldn't be.But..how did my sis know candy dreams? He thought.Wanting to solve this unanswered question, he took the piece of paper and went to the living room to ask his sister."Cindy!" Jason called."What's up bro," Cindy replied."Who is this person? How did u get her email add?""Don't be silly. Isn't that Joan? You know her. She was at my birthday party, remember?" Cindy casually replied."Huh? That Joan? Oh..thanks." Jason returned the paper to his sister.He went back to his room and turned on his computer.No wonder everything that happened to her seemed so familiar to me..but..should i let her know who I am? I don't want to. I want to take hold of this chance to get to know her better..But..we're supposed to meet next week..what should i do..? Jason was lost in his thoughts.[Candy Dreams has logged on][Dotty] says: Hey..[Candy Dreams] says: Hiyahhz[Dotty] says: Um..i don't think i'll be able to meet u next week..I'm going out..[Candy Dreams] says: Oh..in that case..it's alright..[Dotty] says: I'm sorry..[Candy Dreams] says: It's reallie okay. We can always find some other time to meet up rite?[Dotty] says: Um well..i'll be kind of busy for the next few months..[Candy Dreams] says: Okay then..we'll talk about it again when you're free..[Dotty] says: Okay..[Candy Dreams] says: Yeah..[Dotty] says: Why aren't u talking..?[Candy Dreams] says: I'm just kind of disappointed..but it's okay reallie.[Dotty] says: Oh..[Dotty] says: Well, never mind. I think i will be able to meet u afterall.[Candy Dreams] says: Huh?[Dotty] says: Um..i jus remembered that it's thursday i'm going out on. Shesh.i can get pretty forgetful sometimes u know..[Candy Dreams] says: Really?That's great!=).Hey, i gotta go. Cya! Night.[Candy Dreams has logged off]"Dear Diary,I feel like such a liar.But i still had to meet her in the end. I can't bear to see her upset. It reallie hurts. It makes me sad to see her disappointed like just now.. Anyway it's just a meeting with her right? Why am i being such a coward? But..i don't want her to know. I reallie want to get to know her well.."

*****Dave entered the classroom with a box of chocolates in his hands. He smiled at Joan and passed her the box."Huh? Is that for me?" Joan asked."Yep.Hope u'll accept it.""But..i can't..""Please..just give me a chance to prove that i can love u like anyone else does..," Dave said sincerely, looking at Joan."Oh well..Okay.."Joan felt touched. Was this how it felt like to be loved by someone else? She smiled gratefully at him."Dear Diary,It's been a few days since i last saw Jason. I wonder what he's doing right now..? Dave is being pretty sweet to me. He's a nice guy. Well, i'm not considering anything though. Am i? Nah..don't think so. I'm meeting Dotty tomorrow. I'm so excited. I've known him for a year and tomorrow will be the first time i'm meeting him. Hope everything goes well.." "Joan?"Joan quickly shut her book."Yea?" She said to Dave."Are you free tonight? Do you want to go watch a movie?""Um well..alright." Joan decided that there couldn't be much harm done in watching a movie with Dave."I'll pick u up at 7pm then?""Yep."

*****A car arrived outside Joan's house at 7pm sharp. The doorbell rang and Joan ran to open the door. "Hey, you're punctual!" She commented. Dave led Joan to the car. They soon reached the cinema. But everything passed quickly and they had watched finish the touching romance movie. Dave sent her home. "Dear Diary,Is it possible that I like Dave? He makes me feel wanted. Makes me feel loved. I don't feel like waiting for Jason anymore when there's someone like Dave who is willing to spent his time loving me. But.I don't know.How am i supposed to feel now? I'm confused ever since Dave came into my life.. Sometimes i feel that i like him. But sometimes i miss Jason.Alot.I don't know.." Joan sighed.It's so hard to tell my own feelings, she thought.[Dave has logged on][Dave] says: Hi[Candy Dreams] says: Hiya[Dave] says: Um.[Candy Dreams] says: ?[Dave] says: Can you be my girlfriend?[Candy Dreams] says: Um..[Dave] says: I know u need time to decide.I'll give u time.But please give me a chance..[Candy Dreams] says: Okay..how bout trying out? I know it's not reallie the same but i'm sort of confused right now..maybe trying out will help solve this.[Dave] says: If that's what u want..alright..but i'm happy as long as you're willing to do that.[Candy Dreams] says: Kae.i gtg.. Cya tml.[Candy Dreams has logged off]What have i done? She thought. Do i reallie like him? Oh well. I've already done it. Nothing can change. Anyway i sort of like him..right? Yea.

*****The day passed quickly. Finally it was an hour before meeting Dotty. Joan was feeling pretty excited. She decided to go early just to be on the safe side. She had told Dotty her handphone number and told him to call her when he reached. Soon, Joan reached Dolphino.

*****Jason was driving to Dolphino.He had tried to dial Joan's number to tell him that he might be late but she seemed to have turned off her handphone. He fixed his attention on his handphone instead of the road and dialled her number again. Then, he heard a scream. He looked up from his handphone to see a child standing in the middle of the road. He swerved to avoid hitting him and hit onto a tree. Everything blackened out. He couldn't feel anything..

*****Joan had been waiting for half an hour now. She was getting impatient but still, she had to wait for Dotty's call. She took out her handphone to see if there were any missed calls. Huh? She thought. She had turned off her handphone without realising it. No wonder there were no calls for her. It's all my fault, she thought. I hope Dotty calls again.

*****Jason awoke to find himself in a hospital bed. A sharp pain in his leg caused him to wince."Quick, find someone with the same blood type as this guy!!" a voice said."Wait!" Jason heard himself saying.The doctor and the nurses stopped in their tracks to look at Jason."I know I'm dying soon..don't stop me..I just need a pen and paper..please.." Both items were passed to him a minute later. Using all the strength he had left, he wrote a letter to Joan. After he had finished writing, he gave Joan's number to the nurse and told her to call Joan to the hospital to collect the letter. Jason felt tired. He decided to go to sleep. Maybe that would stop all the pain. Without realising it, he felt himself drifting apart from the world..

*****An hour later, Joan was still standing outside Dolphino. Suddenly, her phone rang."Hello?" Joan said."Is this Joan? I am calling from the hospital. A guy who identifies himself as Jason has asked u to come to the hospital to collect a letter." The voice replied."I'll be right over."

*****Joan walked to the reception counter."Hi..I'm Joan. There's supposed to be a letter for me..?"The nurse on duty looked up."Oh yah. Here you go." She passed a piece of paper to Joan.Joan took it and walked down the corridor, reading the letter..:"Hey..candy pig..well..are u suprised that i know this nickname that was given to u by Dotty? I do not want to hide it anymore..i am dotty..i just knew that u were candy dreams a few days ago too. that was why i was so afraid of letting u see who i am..by the time u received this letter..i probably won't be in this world anymore..i'll be somewhere else..far far away..away from all this pain.it hurts too much to continue living. i have loved u the moment i saw u, Joan. But you onli treated me as a good friend..it hurts. Everytime u say "thanks for being such a good friend", it's like a stab to my heart. I want u to treat me more than a friend. but it's so hard to say so..i have never confessed my feelings to you..for fear of being rejected.now that i'm leaving this world..perhaps it won't be so hard to tell u anymore..anyway...i heard that you and Dave are going steady. Is that true? If it is..congratulations to u.. maybe you would be happier and more fortunate. Dave would surely treat u better than your ex.I'm happy for u. I told myself..as long as u find your happiness..i will give you my blessings..cos i learnt that loving someone is not about holding on..it's about making her happy. I'm glad that i spent my lifetime knowing you. I have never regretted knowing you because you gave me happiness..a kind of happiness that no one else is able to provide me with..i know u don't feel the same way..but it's okay..i just want u to be happy..I'll be ending my letter than..bye..my leaf..From: Jason a.k.a Dotty...=).."A tear dropped on the paper.

*****Joan rushed to the reception again."Which room is Jason in?" She asked."Room 169. But be quick. The doctors are going to carry his body away soon."Joan ran all the way to Room 169, still clutching the letter. She peered into the glass window that seperated both her and Jason. There he was, lying in the bed. He's not here anymore..she thought.Wait,i don't understand. Why did he call me his leaf in the letter? Joan thought.Glancing down on the paper, She saw the small words that was written at the corner of the paper."Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit? Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay..?"She was touched. Two tears rolled down her crimson cheeks."Tree didn't ask her to stay.." She whispered.

i danced @ 10:11 AM

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Alrite~ here i am today! gonna share my life again.. meet up wib siew ting and meijuan on thursday nite! went for movie, inital d.. great show!! every racer is soooo handsome in there! awww.. edison~ jay~ etc2! admire em so much! lolz.. then tok our heart out as they are my long-life childhood playmate.. great day.. hope to meet up wib em realy soon! and went out wib bros and sis after sch on friday.. actually longing to see uncle swee lin~ but he got something on and couldnt turn up.. *sad~* haha so slack ard the whole day at tamp mall and fall asleep and gelare cafe -.-" how great.. haha.. after dinner, things tat are meant to be kept sercet are now offically confessed! haha.. feel much better rite every1? *cheers* hope every1 will be happi always.. i love u ppl~!
Sat went to work @ europa.. i have request to quit tis job already as many don like it as i'm working tis job.. but really i have fun working there! there's many nice frenz i get to noe there.. great working pals.. even thou i've quitted.. i will go back and visit em frequently! hehe.. things juz didnt go well yest even its my last day of work.. some1 didnt paid for their meal and run off!! wat the hell.. making us da poor 6 staffs have to pay for their meals.. fark it.. so idiot of em.. how could adults do such a things!? hate em >.< its like working 2hrs free for europa after paying for em.. zzz.. sianz..
My closest frenz are all concern abt tis.. do i still like him? seriously i donno why but no matter how he hurt mi, no matter how much he lied, no matter wat he've done.. i still like him.. i noe i'm foolish or silly.. i juz cant get over him.. i miss him.. i'm sorry.. love is blind i guess.. hmmm~ tats all for today peers.. cya ard soon! chao!


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My long-life sista! Noe em since born.. i look weird wib my spect on my head? haha!
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Taken during our previous meeting.. did i grow rounder again compare to the lastest meeting pic aboved? -.-


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Bro kuma acting cute together wib the merry-go-round.. haha!


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Same2 being surrounded by figers! lolz!

i danced @ 3:20 AM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

First and foremost! HAPPY BDAE DADDY!! and oso HAPPY BDAE MANYI!! wahaha.. daddy & manyi is older by a yr! stay healthy wor~~ man2 was soooo slpy in clz todaY! was really a torture to attend sch first thing in the early morning on a bdae~ poor man2! hehe.. alrite.. all da best in wateva u do ok? and i love u man2!! ^^ hmmm.. juz back frm dinner wib family.. went to eat the donno wat-so-ever call steamboat.. wib a damn spicy soup base and a chicken soup base.. the food is really tasty~~~ vvvv fresh food!! after dinner went shopping ard IMM.. haha a great family day~ i love em sooooo muchie!! seriously loadsss!!hehe.. thanks daddy for always giving mi wat i wan~ thanks mummy for waking mi up every morning and doing everything for mi~~ thanks kor2 for pamper mi in everyway.. wah~~ i like saying thanks note like tat.. ok enff of these.. overall means they are really impt to me in my entire life!! so pls bless em always to be safe & healthy!! ^^
TOday i was shock wib a piece of news.. wat can i say.. i'm really shocked.. i felt so lost all of a sudden.. i'm sad! why did things turn out to be tis way? its seems like everything is getting out of hand! i really donno wat i sld say.. i'm confuse! i'm really stress over tis.. i donno why too.. i'm feeling stuffy! gosh~ where are u at when i needed u most? who sld i turn to? i'm juz having tis weird feeling.. its tat a omen? nono~ tats bullshit! haiz.. hopefully it will turn out to be a happy ending.. i wish no1 get hurts.. u ppl are all my precious! tats all~ tk care.. cya ard!


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I'm bored in da clz! As usual BIG eyes big.. my eyes are weird! I'm soooo slpy!!


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Again~ I simply loves hiding behind her! =x


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My ever 2 best malay buds!! da bitches!!


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Uh huh~ its 3 now! Khai da onli guy~~ ^^


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My forever lovable slutsss!! love yea all always~


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Tats da delicious soup base! I wanna go back again >.<


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I swear!! Tis is da most sweetest couple i ever seen! *happy forever*


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Like father, like son~ hehe.. Sweeeett~

i danced @ 8:37 AM

Monday, June 20, 2005

Arghhh.. today was da first day of sch! as usual.. i dragged myself there early in da morning! *proud* for soooo long i've been waking up late but yet i still can wake up at 7am tis morning! *so proud* wahaha~ yea.. new simei campus.. great place.. everywhere look so "class~" the cafeteria have mutiply choices of foods.. the toilet was much more cleaner then my previous sch.. everything is juz so good over there.. but i still not used to tis unfamiliar place.. wish i was back in clementi ite.. at least i'm wib my whole bunch of buddies.. i really miss the time when we were in our own clz QC!! tat was the greatest fun i ever had! da new clz now is sucky.. all ppl are so quiet! i no longer hear laughter.. no longer felt i'm at home wib all my bitches and sluts.. i miss the togetherness soooo freaking loads! >.< *sad* but no choice.. frm now on i muz start getting used to tis whole bunch of new stranger.. hopefully they are nice fellas.. haiz! hope tml will be a better day for mi~ how great could it be when i'm having lesson at 8am where i have to awake by 6am.. *yawnz* cya every1~ take care my QC dears~ our togetherness are nv seperate in our heart yeah! ^^


The Happening Moment of QC!


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The attitude us!


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Sweet moment~


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My happy family~


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We are the girls!!


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Da celebration @ seoul garden for Char & Zihui bdae~

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How attitude can us be!? Haha~


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Our CT boys! The bro fighter!? -_-"


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Me and my beloved boss! where's my pay? >.<''


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My most adorable daughter!! Love ya always!!


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Da cute ghost of my life! Europa Kakis oso! Wahaha~ Love yea!


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Sally, sally lump jum pas! =X Miss yea ger!


-Haiz~ seperated frm charlene, bib, penny, sally, zihui, huisi & khai!! gosh~ i miss u ppl soooo much!- >.< *frenz forever man~!* ^^

i danced @ 8:03 AM

Sunday, June 19, 2005

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During our shopping trip! serene & mi~ cute!!! ^^


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Wah~ i look slim! so great~ photo is really deceiving!

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Tats the neoprint taken @ tampines mall~ My precious!


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I love hiding behide her.. makes mi look smaller! =X


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Henry & ting2! actually they are trying to act cute -.-"

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Yeah!tis is call acting cute! wahaha~


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Same lame shit.. hen is a pro cute actor! lolz!


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posted mok wearing my mushy hat! wondering will he strangle mi? =\


Muahaha tats all da funny shit~ *ending*

i danced @ 2:56 AM


Tis week.. my last wk of holidays! sianz 1/2~ mon & tue was working europa as usual.. wed went shopping wib my dearest motorola sista serene!! awwww~ its so much fun! really loves shopping wib her.. she's my best shopping kakis ever!! we went far east and crash the whole buliding! brought lotsa stuff cuz its having sales everywhere! i cant even have enff time to shop finish every single thing in far east! cuz we went to dinner for quite long but i'm satisfy cuz i ate my favourite creamy mushy pasta!! gosh! it taste soooo good! and thanks yea mok and jem.. sorry for making u both to shop wib us.. and i noe u guys are complaining! come on.. we didnt tk 3hrs juz to shop at the basement.. its barely 2hrs onli, i think? *nod head* yea sldnt be 3hrs tat long.. even if is.. tats the way of shopping! wahahaha~
13of june is poh2 bdae! but we celebrate it on thur.. argghh didnt tk pic at all~ so sad.. but have a great time eating at amk the jap resto.. oh the food there is nice.. and most importantly, its soooo cheap! i cant imagine how come they sell it at such a cheap price~ and i shall nt mention how jem & mok run away frm mi on tat day.. -_-" we are like playing hide and seek! *faints~* and thanks for da hand-roll.. it really taste soooo good jem! i really ate it! hmmm think i sld eat more sushi.. cuz seems like its not fattening! lolz!
Friday was another happi day for mi~! cuz i met up wib my 3 motorola sis!! and maggi frm moto too! wah~~~ simply miss da time while we are working at motorola.. miss our joy over there! >.<~ *sobz* we went over to paya lebar for chicken!!? sound weird isnt it? go until sooo far to eat chicken? wahaha! but the fried chicken there taste sooooo good!! is like kfc chicken but the chicken are more tender then those in kfc! everything taste sooo good there! i wanna visit there again! hehe.. oh ya saw my secondary sch mate alicia too! so coincidence! great day! after dinning.. we head over to tampines mall cuz we wanna tk neoprint together! so much sales in tamp mall too!! i sld go back there and shop 1 day! =x finally bid farewell to my dear sista.. but we promise to meet up soon again! hopefully.. every1 is busy wib poly work~ =< love ya all my motorola sistas!! the ah family~! ^^
Sat have to work for europa in da morning shift.. gosh.. i barely awake! its sooo tiring to wake up so early.. thou morning shift is relaxing cuz there isnt much the customer, the opening sucks! cuz we gotta clean up.. tats so sick~ ate subway for breakfast.. damn its expensive! but it taste good and was a really healthy food i can say.. soooo much vege in it! haha.. after my work meet up wib my bro and sis! i got no choice but to wear my mushy hat cuz my hair looks sucky after work.. but in da end.. those bros say i look weird? -.-! yea i know it.. i look like a mushroom too! z.z my sis ting2 is still da best.. at least she say i don look weird.. hmmmmp! >.< blahz! kuma seems moody yest.. haiz.. hope he'll back to cheerful soon.. so he went off first and mok, hen and mi wait for ting2 to close da boutique.. but we ended up playing in da shop.. -.-" was fun tending a shop wib frenz! ting2 aint u touch we were so good to u? keke..
Wah type my whole weeks life here.. its a long entry.. and yea sianz.. mon sch reopens! yawnz* gotta awake early everyday! sianz! and oso.. we are being seperate frm the original class tis sem! idiot accounting head ms phua.. u make us suffered frm tis! damn! hmmm some things are bothering mi.. wat sld i do? i'm confuse.. alrite tats all for today i guess.. cya all.. chao!

i danced @ 2:17 AM


Bg's 18th Bdae Celebration @ Fisherman's Village!


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The sweetest couple~~ *envy* >.<~ haha!


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Me and cheryl ong! wib a extra kuma? wahaha~


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Calvin & Kuma~ *Hand Sign = 8yrs of brothership!*

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My bro kuma & me~~ kinda blurr pic =.="


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Henry & Shaun~ Guys loveeee acting cute too! *_*


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Bdae boi ben on da center wib guys at 19yrs old!


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Ben wib da guys at 18yrs old! cuz their bdae isnt over!


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Bg wib 2 swweeeet gers!! keke.. =X

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Tis is wat we call bengs? wahahaha~

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Shaun & Darren~ How brotherly can tis pic be, rite tay? =x

i danced @ 1:53 AM

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Mok's POP Celebrating @ Fish & Co~


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Tis is Mok!! the private~ No more recruit!


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Indecent~ Showing bad example!! wahhaa~


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Hmmm.. i posted tis.. will i get scolding frm lala? =\


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My sista are lesbian.. so am i.. =X


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Errr.. i look ugly & round! >.< lOlz!

i danced @ 10:56 AM


Went bg's bdae on sat.. fisherman village was a heaty place! thou its along the beachside but there wasnt any sea breeze.. -_-" i was sweating like hell man.. haha.. but enjoyed my day so much there.. was fun.. especially the part where darren & tay took pics together.. yea~ look so brotherly.. soooo sweeet~ lolz! and ya.. thinking abt how tay was acting like a god to disturb ting2 and lala.. "Im god, quick say good evening god!" "don argue wib god, god is always right!" wahaha~ was bloody lame and funny! hmmm.. the food there seems to be quite expensive cuz of the portion they served but i love the lemon chicken best!! wahahaa.. my nokia 3230 was a great hp! done some good jobs for photo compressing.. make our face look slimmer.. keke.. anyway happi 18th bdae bg! hope u enjoyed ur day as much as i do! ^.^
Juz back frm mok's POP celebration, was a great day again.. actually enjoyed practically all my times wib the bros & sistas.. went lunch @ fish & co! ate the best in town fish & chips.. its quite tasty! but the serving was soooo damn big!! but i still empty my platter thanks to same2!(aka jem!) muahaha~ then went on to watch mr & mrs smith.. gosh.. i swear it was a freaking nice show i ever watch!! those who haven watch.. don hesitate and watch it for sure! ^^ and oh ya.. sorry jem.. didnt acc u to dome for coffee man.. gotta rush home cuz curfew starts early for today! haha..
Today dated 12 june* was a memorable day for mi.. a yr or so back was the happiest day of my life.. but frm now on its over.. i love my blog songs, it suits mi best! gtg for now.. europa tml~ yawnz* ha! nite2~ cya all!

i danced @ 9:56 AM

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Brudder Kuma bdae chalet!


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Da "innocent" calvin & kuma! brothers 4 life yea!


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Wee u wee~ Soooo sweeeet!! ting2 wearing it for kuma! ^^


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The fav bdae cheese cake! the coke & beer surrounding are for CHEERS*


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Da bro kuma & mi~ He look sooo fierce >.<~


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Chivas~ secretly taken frm da chalet room! =x Once some1 fav*

i danced @ 11:58 AM