Hello people~! I'm really happy today cause the feelings of having a big stone suppressing in me was put down. Yesterday night, i have a hearty talk with erict to clear my doubts over this breaking relationship because you need to know about everything before you really decide to move on. Finally i realised, there is no more feeling nor love for each other, it's just like a sudden dense feelings flashed across your mind telling you that you're ready to moved on. From nowhere , you finally realised what you really want in your own life - not him, not the past anymore. I think none of my friends will believe me that i can move on so quickly cause about 24hours ago i was still damn emo over this failure. Surprising to all my dears, i really felt there's nothing more to be sad over.

I'm glad to have known many of these friends who were so supportive throughout my lowest point during the past few weeks. During a breakup relationship, there's four stages to go through. First - denial, second - angry, third - depression and forth - acceptant. I've once deny to myself about this lost and keep telling myself that it was just a nightmare and i got so angry and hated him when i know it wasn't some bad dream. At a certain point, i fall into a slight depression where i know i have to face the reality, i'm not going to lie but it was really not easy to go through this four stages by yourself, luckily i've these friend who guide me to the last stage, acceptant.

Wen Han said something very meaningful to me - once the feeling is gone, it will never come back. Like some married couple swear all the vows and oaths, why do they still divorce? Cause they never know about what will happen in the future, so gain experience from this failure, be realistic and don't pour all your feelings out the next time. Thanks man, it somehow makes me wake up from all the trauma.

Jia Rong(jr) told me that i should love myself more than anyone else, appreciate what i have now. Be appreciate that you're still able to see the clear blue sky, still able to feel the warmth from the sun. Be thankful for what you've gone through during this relationship and learn from the mistakes. Every morning, when i think of what he said, i felt blessed. Well, he said he's able to speaks magically words to make me feel better, now i know why.

Shaun, i know sometimes you felt that you're ok but "bang!" you remember them again and back to square one. I understand that is painful but things in life happened for a reason, and god knows he has plans for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I hope you can recover from the same way as i did. You have my support, talk to us.

Liting its been hard for you, i know what you've been through and it's never easier than my case, it's hell lots more aching. Remember you once said to me "You will meet the person eventually who will stand in front of you with an open arms and smile with tears, that is the guy who belongs to you" Someday, you'll find the guy of yours too. Let's move on with me will you?

Libing, Wen Quan, Jason - Just wanted to tell you guys again, every relationship tend to have different kind of problems, if you really love him/her and see a future for the both of you, work hard for each other, don't ever give up easily. Even if it's not a happy ending, don't regret for the decision you made. Remember when you lost something, you'll gain something - you lost a lover but you'll gain a friend and a future happiness.

Trina, today starts the new chapter of my life. The Happiness Of Myself. No more worries about me anymore, like you said, i can be really "sa tuo". Now i know why you said so cause i felt it inside me. Last but not least, Happy Birthday Bao! Hope you do like the present i've got for you.


To all my dears, live your life to the fullest. ;')

Today was out for a short shopping trip with mum. While waiting at the bus stop, a bicycle almost knock me down when i dash out to flag the bus and didn't notice it coming. The bicycle driver scolded me for not looking but my mum stood up for me and said "you did not ring the bell, why did u scold my daughter?" i was happy cause at least she stood up for me.

Q: How would you feel if you almost being knocked down and that someone blame you for your carelessness instead of stooding up for you?

Brothers' birthday tml, thinking back how fun the celebration was during last year on 29 oct. Anyway happy birthday to my dear brother! ;')

I just want to be strong strong strong !

Went out with mum after school, back home not long ago and saw something i didn't hope to see.

Since he made this first step to change his friendster profile, i changed mine too. Honestly speaking i'm just waiting for this day to come cause i never want to be the first person who erase it and end everything.

Today is going to be the last time that i'm going to dwell in the past, i guess he has moved on. Someday, he will be having a new gf and that might be the last thing i ever want to know. So just let mi be all emo one more day.

I misses alot of things:

The first time he sent me da vinci audio book that i wanted.
He went to SIM and took the course brochures for me.
He came to my workplace at OG and accompany me till i knocked off from work.
When he tell me how scare he is when i was in genting and didn't pick up his call.
He came to pick me up from work at FR and got drench in the rain but he said it doesnt matter.
When he buy me a heart shape candy and a soft toy pig i wanted.
His mum, she always cook really nice soup and food for us to eat, wondering how is she.
He transfer all the new nice song he got into a thumbdrive and update my outdated songs for me.
He cut song short for me to use as my ringtone and find cute theme for my hp.
He carry my bag for me even though he look gay.
He hugged me and look at me till i fall asleep even when he's not sleepy.
He cuddle me while we watch movie in the living room while his mum is just in the kitchen.
The way he kissed me on my forehead and cheeks.
He brought me to esplande to watch fireworks and we picnic soupspoon mushroom soup for dinner.
That day when he hold my hand at the chalet and tell me that he couldn't sleep.
He helped me to go all the way to PS to buy the bedsheet i wanted.
He folded a ferrero rocher rose for me even it's only once.
We went to parkway to eat ice-cream and scroll 3-4hrs on the beach cause we got the wrong direction.
The day we shop in a IT show, did i tell you? Its really fun.
He buy me the milk pokey and said it was cheap and he know i would like it.
The way he pat on my head and massage for me, asking me do i feel better?
He tuition me for my econs - i score well and he said he'll be treating me to any restaurant i wanted. But who should i turn to if i donno my school work now?
He bought me my favourite cherry apple and carry them to my house.
He tells me that he will watch that movie again with me if he had watch it.
When he gave me a morning sms and a goodnite call daily. Where's my antidote now?

and the list go on, it's too much tears and heart aching to continue. The most important is i miss him.

The only thing that i don't miss is when he made me cry over alot of reasons or perhaps i'm sucha cry baby.





Even so much suffering over crying, i didnt want to let him go cause i love him too much. But the word "breakup" come too easily out of my mouth. I did regret as i never know it hurts so bad and he decided to let go. If ever someone can grant me a wish, "i wish i can turn the time back to 030606, where our relationship begins and start it all over to a happy ending, but it's all too late. I have to move on with my own life cause if you love a person, you should let him go to find the real happiness. But did i ever tell you, you're my real happiness but i decide to let you go cause that's what you wanted. Even though i cant get over, i will pretend hard. Perhaps someday i will forget about you but i think i'm too loyal to a person to ever forget unless some miracle happens. I just hope that few years down the road if i ever met him, he'll still be the guy who doesn't club, drink and flirt - in my eyes, a good man.




I promise i will erase our memories day by day like how you did.


To all those who are concern, thanks people. I really appreciate what you all have done for me. I'll be fine! ;)

I've zillions of words on my mind that i wanna speak but they just couldn't get out.

I've so much feelings i wanted to express but i'm afraid to show them out cause it worries those who are concerned for me.

I wanted to be strong but walking on the streets of orchard on thursday makes me weak. paragon, forum - how we search for things to buy like crazy, i really miss those pretty memories there.

Too much things, too much memories. I just cant get them out of my head.

They said the people who is with you till the end of the day, is worth keeping for life. Why ain't you the one?

From the same mouth of yours, you said you love me and now you said you're going to leave me. Why didn't you choose to stay? You said you tried, but why didn't you try harder to stay?

My blog is so wonderful, a place which allow me to cry while typing, whine, complain and so much more and i realised that since the day he left, i've been throwing all my sad emo entries here. I think i've to stop blogging for awhile till i get better cause everybody get sick of moaning.

Its been a week and the past is still as fresh as new. Does he hurt as badly as i do? I really really do miss that necklace, nothing ever felt so comfortable before.

Hais adios ppl, i shall go into some deep sleep for these wounded moment.

Yesterday poly class chalet was alrite, the fun starts coming in only at night but i was about to go home already. Still, its nice to meet up with them ;)

Before you fall asleep and when you woke up in the morning, who is the first person on your mind? I heard that will be the person you loved most. Every night i wait for the same call and every morning i look at my hp waiting for the same sms i used to get. I think its time to wake up from the past but how can i do it?

I really feel so tired of thinking about him, thinking about how we used to spend our time together will just make me tears. When will i get over it?

Please be strong, sharolene!

I was browsing through "Simply Her" magazine and there's an ad for CHOYA - a drink. Suddenly it rings back some part of my happy memory about us doing groceries shopping for our lunch at NTUC, and how i wanted to buy the drink but both of us felt that it was overprice and we place it back. In addition, an ad for Sentosa, we've planned so much about going over there, always talk about it - he bought sunglasses, i bought the caps......which ended up in a unhappy returns. Well anyway, its all over.

How i wish that he had express to me about certain things earlier and we might not ended up like this. But still, he's the one who let go.......

Cheers for today(17 oct) poly-bonding-chalet ;)

At times when you know that you did something wrong and it’s obviously your fault, you felt scare while doing it but do you know? At the same time, you’ve already allowing the pain of being ‘tell off’ later on by somebody. Even you know that this is not the right thing to do! Why?..... Why did you still proceed on doing it?
There might be many difference reasons from everyone – for curious, for busybody or for love.

When the night falls, my tears fall - because that’s the only time when everyone in my household will be sound asleep and whatever I do…… wouldn’t be notice.

Have I ever told you? “You’re the best thing that happened to me after a long time”
However, it seems like I’ve to wait for another long time again.

It's gonna hurt bad before it gets better.

Yesterday night i did something against somebody's privacy, i felt terrible as i shouldn't be doing certain things anymore. It might just be a bad habit that is hard to kick, or perhaps its never meant to be.

I once told him that its difficult for me to get over someone i adore, but yet he still choose the hardest way for me.

Somebody once told me, "love is like a cold" - you will catch it and somehow you will recover from it. I hope it will be soon for me to step on: 'the road to recovery'

Actually blogging is such an amazing thing because sometimes you will just read over the past entries and see what has happened throughout your life - happy & sad moment. However, wen han says that blogging is a girl thing! I think perhaps girls have more emotion to express while guys are usually more 'relax' type.

I'm really touched to those who has accompany me for chat throughout the late night yesterday and for those who sms/call me during the next day to ask me how i am? I just wanna tell you guys that i'm fine, im doing alright cause this is something that neither of you people can help me get over, i have to do it myself and only me to pull it through. I've so much thank to you guys but didn't know how to phrase it ;)

In life, people comes into your life and some people leaves, but when the one who left is someone who planted a deep memories with you, its just so hard to forget. Sometimes, i blamed myself for giving up so easily but i blamed him even more for giving me up.

The only reason i stop my tears is for my mum cause i don't wanna see her sad for my problem.
Sharolene be strong! ;)

Not masking this time round, i'm really sad and felt devasted at some point, but i keep telling myself i have to be strong - for my family & friends who are so worried about me. They let me realised the power of love from all of them.

I just wanna say: Mum, don't worry about it too much, definatly i will be sad cause i'm a human;a girl, but i promise you i will never do anything silly for something like that. i love you.

And to my friends who are concern out there, really big thanks for being there when i needed you guys most, i think this is called the genuine friendship.

Thou i wanted to hang on, he doesnt want it anymore. While love takes two hearts to beat as one, so there's no point hanging on when the other heart stops beating for you. In the end i gave up to this defeated battle.

Today marks the end of our 16months relationship.



I'm gonna miss him for a period, but time is the key to heal.

When i'm feeling down, the most important thing i'll do is to come online msn and chat with friends that i have not been catching up with them. They always bring joy and happiness to me at that point of time, allowing me to forgets about what has been bothering me.

Even though i types my chat with 'hehe' 'haha' 'lolz' - i think i'm just masking the sorrows living within me.

I'm simply thankful for these friends ;)

Nothing in this world is perfect, there'll always be flaws somewhere that will only be noticed after a period of time. Things never go the way that you want it to be, life usually oppose you. Isn't it sad to know?
Missing the past, really hell lots.

I'm in some deep thoughts, any help?

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