Went out with mum after school, back home not long ago and saw something i didn't hope to see.

Since he made this first step to change his friendster profile, i changed mine too. Honestly speaking i'm just waiting for this day to come cause i never want to be the first person who erase it and end everything.

Today is going to be the last time that i'm going to dwell in the past, i guess he has moved on. Someday, he will be having a new gf and that might be the last thing i ever want to know. So just let mi be all emo one more day.

I misses alot of things:

The first time he sent me da vinci audio book that i wanted.
He went to SIM and took the course brochures for me.
He came to my workplace at OG and accompany me till i knocked off from work.
When he tell me how scare he is when i was in genting and didn't pick up his call.
He came to pick me up from work at FR and got drench in the rain but he said it doesnt matter.
When he buy me a heart shape candy and a soft toy pig i wanted.
His mum, she always cook really nice soup and food for us to eat, wondering how is she.
He transfer all the new nice song he got into a thumbdrive and update my outdated songs for me.
He cut song short for me to use as my ringtone and find cute theme for my hp.
He carry my bag for me even though he look gay.
He hugged me and look at me till i fall asleep even when he's not sleepy.
He cuddle me while we watch movie in the living room while his mum is just in the kitchen.
The way he kissed me on my forehead and cheeks.
He brought me to esplande to watch fireworks and we picnic soupspoon mushroom soup for dinner.
That day when he hold my hand at the chalet and tell me that he couldn't sleep.
He helped me to go all the way to PS to buy the bedsheet i wanted.
He folded a ferrero rocher rose for me even it's only once.
We went to parkway to eat ice-cream and scroll 3-4hrs on the beach cause we got the wrong direction.
The day we shop in a IT show, did i tell you? Its really fun.
He buy me the milk pokey and said it was cheap and he know i would like it.
The way he pat on my head and massage for me, asking me do i feel better?
He tuition me for my econs - i score well and he said he'll be treating me to any restaurant i wanted. But who should i turn to if i donno my school work now?
He bought me my favourite cherry apple and carry them to my house.
He tells me that he will watch that movie again with me if he had watch it.
When he gave me a morning sms and a goodnite call daily. Where's my antidote now?

and the list go on, it's too much tears and heart aching to continue. The most important is i miss him.

The only thing that i don't miss is when he made me cry over alot of reasons or perhaps i'm sucha cry baby.





Even so much suffering over crying, i didnt want to let him go cause i love him too much. But the word "breakup" come too easily out of my mouth. I did regret as i never know it hurts so bad and he decided to let go. If ever someone can grant me a wish, "i wish i can turn the time back to 030606, where our relationship begins and start it all over to a happy ending, but it's all too late. I have to move on with my own life cause if you love a person, you should let him go to find the real happiness. But did i ever tell you, you're my real happiness but i decide to let you go cause that's what you wanted. Even though i cant get over, i will pretend hard. Perhaps someday i will forget about you but i think i'm too loyal to a person to ever forget unless some miracle happens. I just hope that few years down the road if i ever met him, he'll still be the guy who doesn't club, drink and flirt - in my eyes, a good man.




I promise i will erase our memories day by day like how you did.


To all those who are concern, thanks people. I really appreciate what you all have done for me. I'll be fine! ;)