Hello people~! I'm really happy today cause the feelings of having a big stone suppressing in me was put down. Yesterday night, i have a hearty talk with erict to clear my doubts over this breaking relationship because you need to know about everything before you really decide to move on. Finally i realised, there is no more feeling nor love for each other, it's just like a sudden dense feelings flashed across your mind telling you that you're ready to moved on. From nowhere , you finally realised what you really want in your own life - not him, not the past anymore. I think none of my friends will believe me that i can move on so quickly cause about 24hours ago i was still damn emo over this failure. Surprising to all my dears, i really felt there's nothing more to be sad over.

I'm glad to have known many of these friends who were so supportive throughout my lowest point during the past few weeks. During a breakup relationship, there's four stages to go through. First - denial, second - angry, third - depression and forth - acceptant. I've once deny to myself about this lost and keep telling myself that it was just a nightmare and i got so angry and hated him when i know it wasn't some bad dream. At a certain point, i fall into a slight depression where i know i have to face the reality, i'm not going to lie but it was really not easy to go through this four stages by yourself, luckily i've these friend who guide me to the last stage, acceptant.

Wen Han said something very meaningful to me - once the feeling is gone, it will never come back. Like some married couple swear all the vows and oaths, why do they still divorce? Cause they never know about what will happen in the future, so gain experience from this failure, be realistic and don't pour all your feelings out the next time. Thanks man, it somehow makes me wake up from all the trauma.

Jia Rong(jr) told me that i should love myself more than anyone else, appreciate what i have now. Be appreciate that you're still able to see the clear blue sky, still able to feel the warmth from the sun. Be thankful for what you've gone through during this relationship and learn from the mistakes. Every morning, when i think of what he said, i felt blessed. Well, he said he's able to speaks magically words to make me feel better, now i know why.

Shaun, i know sometimes you felt that you're ok but "bang!" you remember them again and back to square one. I understand that is painful but things in life happened for a reason, and god knows he has plans for you, plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. I hope you can recover from the same way as i did. You have my support, talk to us.

Liting its been hard for you, i know what you've been through and it's never easier than my case, it's hell lots more aching. Remember you once said to me "You will meet the person eventually who will stand in front of you with an open arms and smile with tears, that is the guy who belongs to you" Someday, you'll find the guy of yours too. Let's move on with me will you?

Libing, Wen Quan, Jason - Just wanted to tell you guys again, every relationship tend to have different kind of problems, if you really love him/her and see a future for the both of you, work hard for each other, don't ever give up easily. Even if it's not a happy ending, don't regret for the decision you made. Remember when you lost something, you'll gain something - you lost a lover but you'll gain a friend and a future happiness.

Trina, today starts the new chapter of my life. The Happiness Of Myself. No more worries about me anymore, like you said, i can be really "sa tuo". Now i know why you said so cause i felt it inside me. Last but not least, Happy Birthday Bao! Hope you do like the present i've got for you.


To all my dears, live your life to the fullest. ;')